The Lie That Kept Me Angry at God for Years

By Mary R. Dittman, M.B.A.

For years, I believed God was punishing me with singleness.

I wouldn't have said it quite that bluntly, but that's what I believed.

I thought I simply hadn't become good enough to deserve the desire of my heart: a loving marriage and a family of my own.

If you grew up in church, you've probably heard Psalm 37:4:

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

I interpreted that verse to mean that if I didn't have the desire of my heart, then I must not be delighting myself in the Lord enough.

Surely I was doing something wrong.

Maybe God was disappointed in me.

Maybe He was withholding His blessing.

Maybe I needed to try harder.

The problem with believing God is angry with you is that you can never have peace.

You're always performing.

Always striving.

Always wondering what else you need to fix.

Trying to Earn God's Favor

At one point, I became fascinated by the...

Why Your Worth Has Nothing to Do With Your Relationship Status

By Mary R. Dittman, M.B.A.

For years, I believed there was something wrong with me.

I wouldn't have said it exactly that way, but that's what I believed.

I've always wanted marriage and a family. Not because I felt pressured by society, and not because I grew up in a small Southern town where most people marry young. I wanted those things because I genuinely desired them for myself.

The problem was that they never happened.

The longer I remained single, the more I began to wonder if my singleness meant something about me.

Maybe I wasn't attractive enough.

Maybe I wasn't lovable enough.

Maybe I wasn't good enough.

And every year that passed seemed to reinforce the belief.

If there wasn't something wrong with me, why was I still single?

Today, I don't believe that anymore.

Today, I believe my worth has absolutely nothing to do with my marital status.

Getting to that place wasn't easy, but it changed my life.

Th...